Percayalah. . .
Tuhan itu Maha Pengasih
Yakinilah. . .
Tuhan itu ada
Dia selalu ada
Dalam setiap tarikan nafas, denyut jantung, dan dalam aliran darah
Percayalah. . .
Tuhan itu Maha Penyayang
Dia selalu menyayangimu dengan cara-Nya sendiri
Dengan cobaan ataupun anugerah
Percayalah. . .
Karena dengan kepercayaan itu kita hidup
Segala sesuatu lahir atas dasar cinta
Tapi, jangan pernah berpikir
Mencintai berarti harus memiliki
Mencintai berarti selalu bersama
Karena aku bukanlah untukmu
Kini . . .
Jika kau menangis
Hanya sapu tangan yang bisa kuberikan
Dan jika kau berduka atau dalam masalah
Hanya do'a yang dapat kupanjatkan untukmu
Sesungguhnya
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
I am nothing without you
I am loser without you
You are my soul
You are my life
You give me spirit and strength
To face this cruel world
I am nothing without you
Please, don't leave me alone
To face Your destiny
LOVE is
Lord of everyone in this world
Occupy a special place in the heart
Various people with various story
Everyone needs it to be perfect
“Dimana ini?” tanyaku pada diri sendiri.
Kemudian dengan sedikit rasa panik aku melihat sekelilingku, namun hanya aku yang berdiri sendiri di tengah padang rumput yang luas. Sambil menenangkan diri mataku kembali berkeliling untuk melihat mungkin ada seseorang yang dapat kutanyai dimana ini sebenarnya. Namun tak ada siapapun, akupun putus asa dan kupejamkan mataku dengan sedih. Saat kubuka mata, tak jauh dari tempaku berada, berdiri tegak sebuah bangunan yang sangat mewah dan elegan bergaya arsitektur Eropa yang megah. “bukannya tadi tidak ada apa-apa disini?” seruku dalam hati. “kok, sekarang ada rumah?”lanjutku. Namun aku juga mengagumi rumah itu. Sehingga aku ingin melihatnya lebih dekat. Lalu, dengan penuh rasa penasaran kudekati dan kuhampiri rumah mewah itu.
“Wah. . . bagus sekali rumah ini!” seruku.
Dari kejauhan tampak beberapa orang pelayan sedang membersihkan rumah itu. Ketika aku semakin dekat, salah satu pelayan itu melihatku dan kemudian menghampiriku. Kakiku menjadi kaku karena pelayan tersebut bertubuh tinggi besar dan berkumis lebat. Aku takut ia akan memarahiku dan mengusirku karena telah datang tanpa diundang. Setelah ia tepat dihadapanku, jantungku seakan-akan mau copot saking takutnya. Tapi tiba-tiba pelayan lelaki bertubuh besar itu justru tersenyum padaku dan mempersilahkan aku masuk dan memintaku untuk mengikutinya. Dia ramah sekali, sangat jauh berbeda dengan tampangnya yang seram itu.
Aku semakin bingung karena ketika aku melewati pelayan-pelayan yang lain mereka berhenti sejenak dan memberi salam dengan hormat padaku seolah-olah aku ini atasan mereka. Pelayan yang tinggi besar itu mempersilahkanku masuk. Tepat seperti dugaanku, bagian dalam rumah jauh lebih indah dan megah dibandingkan dengan bagian luar tadi. Semua barang-barang yang ada serasi satu sama lain. Kemudian lelaki itu memintaku untuk duduk, akupun menurutinya. Setelah menawarkan minuman padaku dia pergi untuk mengambilnya.
Di ruangan itu hanya ada aku seorang yang duduk. Akupun bertanya-tanya kembali dimana sebenarnya aku ini. Rumah ini sangat sempurna, siapakah gerangan pemiliknya? Aku sangat mengagumi rumah ini, “Seandainya saja aku mempunyai rumah seperti ini, ah. . . akan sempurna sekali hidupku.” seruku dalam hati. Ketika aku sedang asyik mengagumi keindahannya, terdengar suara langkah kaki seseorang dari arah loteng, akupun terlonjak karena terkejut. Ternyata itu adalah langkah seorang wanita paruh baya yang sedang menuruni tangga. Dia melihat ke arahku dan seperti pelayan yang tadi wanita itupun tersenyum padaku. Dia tetap tersenyum ketika tiba dihadapanku, sehingga membuatku ikut tersenyum juga.
“Selamat pagi. Bagaimana jalan-jalan di luar tadi, menyenangkan?” tanya wanita itu.
“Ehm. . .” hanya itu suara yang dapak ku keluarkan dari tenggorokanku yang kini terasa sangat haus. Namun dalam hati aku bertanya-tanya. “Siapa wanita ini? Apa dia mengenalku? Memangnya apa yang sudah ku lakukan di luar tadi? Seingatku aku tidak jalan-jalan kemanapun, tadi aku hanya berdiri saja di tengah padang rumput. Sebenarnya apa yang sedang terjadi? Apa yang sedang kulakukan disini?” Lamunanku dibuyarkan oleh kedatangan pelayan bertubuh besar tadi yang datang membawakan minuman yang kelihatannya sangat segar, cocok untuk tengorokanku yang kini kian kering kerontang. Dengan cepat kuraih gelas yang disodorkan padaku dan kuteguk habis air di dalamnya. Aku berharap air itu bagai oasis di gurun pasir, namun ternyata rasa haus ditenggorokanku tidak juga hilang malah semakin kering. Aku semakin bingung. Dimana aku ini sebenarnya?
Lalu wanita paruh baya itu bertanya lagi padaku.
“Nona pasti capek, mari saya antar ke kamar untuk istirahat.” serunya dengan lembut.
Kemudian tiba-tiba seluruh tubuhku menjadi sangat lelah, dan akhirnya akupun mengikuti wanita itu ke kamar. Kamar itu juga sangat indah. Dinding dan temapt tidurnya berwarna coklat emas, sangat elegan. Semua barang-barang di dalamnya serasi dan wewah, akan membuat siapapun yang memasukinya merasa nyaman. “Andai aku punya kamar seperti ini.” seruku dalam hati. “Siapa ya. . . pemilik kamar ini?” lanjutku. “Dia pasti sangat bahagia punya kamar sebagus ini.”
Di dalam kamar aku kembali memikirkan semua kejadian yang baru saja kualami ini. Tanpa kusadari akupun tertidur. Selang beberapa lama aku terbangun karena ada seseorang yang mengetuk pintu kamar itu. Saat aku terbangun, aku terkejut. Aku bukan tidur di kamar dimana aku tidur tadi. Aku sangat mengenali kamar ini. Kamar yang selama 20 tahun ku tiduri. Dinding berwarna pink kumuh yang dihiasi beberapa poster idolaku. Meja belajar yang penuh buku serta lemari kecil di sudut ruangan yang pintunya terbuka karena tidak cukup menampung semua baju-bajuku. Ini kamarku. Ya, ini kamarku. Lalu tadi aku tidur dimana? Rumah mewah itu, kamar itu?
Lalu kulihat tanganku menggenggam sebuah buku lama yang menceritakan negara-negara di Eropa. Segala sesuatu yang menyangkut peradaban mereka. Lalu akupun tersennyum kecil mengingat kejadian-kejadian itu.”Ternyata cuma mimpi.” seruku dalam hati seraya bangun dari tempat tidur untuk membuka pintu.
1. Definition of abortion
An abortion is the medical process of ending a pregnancy so that it does not result in the birth of a baby. Sometimes, health care professionals may refer to an abortion as a 'termination of pregnancy', or as just a 'termination'.
An abortion is different from a miscarriage where the pregnancy ends without medical intervention. However, medical treatment may be needed after a miscarriage. Confusingly, health care professionals sometimes refer to a miscarriage as a 'spontaneous abortion'. (http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Abortion/Pages/Introduction.aspx)
Another source states that abortion is ending of a pregnancy before the fetus is developed sufficiently to survive outside the uterus. Loss of a fetus at a later stage is termed premature stillbirth. Abortion may be natural (miscarriage) or deliberate (termination of pregnancy). (http://legal-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Physical+Effects+of+Abortion)
From the definition of abortion above, the writer concluded that abortion is a process of ending pregnancy. There are two types of abortion, they are natural abortion or called miscarriage and abortion on purpose called termination of pregnancy. But in this paper the writer only discuss about the effects of abortion on purpose or termination.
Actually there are two kinds of abortion, first is medical abortion ( usually use drugs) and second is surgical abortion (little operation). Medical abortion is the use of mifepristone and misoprostol pills that halts the production of pregnancy hormones and makes the uterus push out the embryo or fetus. While the surgical abortion, a doctor uses the vacuum device to empty the womb.
2. The effects of abortion
The reasons why a woman has an abortion are not always the same. Some women seek abortion due to health reasons, while there are those who cite emotional and mental immaturity as the reason for wanting to terminate their pregnancy.
As the writer tells that there are two types of abortion ( medical and surgical abortion), and both of two types almost have several similar effects. And the effects of abortion can occur both in physical and psychological or mental effects.
2.1 Physical Effects
After carry out an abortion, woman who do abortion will get some of the physical effects and may be the effects will continue in several weeks. The physical effects that can occur are :
Those effects are usually occur for up to 2 or 4 weeks after the procedure of abortion. Although serious complications only occur in less than 1 out of 100 first trimester abortions and approximately 1 out of every 50 late term abortions; so, it is important to know the possible risks:
· Heavy or persistent bleeding
· Infection or sepsis
· Damage to the cervix
· Scarring of the uterine lining
· Perforation of the uterus
· Damage to other organs
· Death
It is important to understand that these risks are rare and some are even present with child birth. What matters is that you are aware that they exist as you make an educated decision about your pregnancy.
Besides the effects above, there are also Long term effects of medical abortion. They are :
Prolonged Bleeding
· It is normal to experience vaginal bleeding after taking the abortion pill, since it is part of the process of passing the embryo. It is not normal, however, for this bleeding to continue over an extended period of time. For some women, a long-term side effect is vaginal bleeding. It can continue for up to 12 days, and for some women, for up to six weeks.
Ectopic Pregnancy
· In the rare case that a woman is having an ectopic pregnancy (the pregnancy is taking place in the fallopian tubes), the abortion pill could lead to death. If a woman with an ectopic pregnancy takes the abortion pill, she will see blood afterward and assume it is because the pill has done its job. In reality, though, the pill could have cause the fallopian tube to burst, endangering the patient's life. If a ruptured tube is not repaired in time, the outcome could be fatal.
Incomplete Abortions
· There have been cases of incomplete abortions in 5 to 15 percent of abortion pill cases. If the pill fails to abort the embryo, the patient must then go into immediate surgery. With any surgery, major risks are involved, such as complications with anesthesia, which can lead to death. Surgeries that deal in abortion complications can also cause infertility.
Pelvic Inflammatory Disease
· Within four weeks of an abortion, 5 percent of women contracted pelvic inflammatory disease (PID). The long-term effects of PID include chronic pelvic pain, a risk of ectopic pregnancies in the future, painful intercourse and reduced fertility. The chances of a woman getting PID after an abortion increase if Chlamydia is present.
2.2 Psychological and Emotional Effects
The main negative consequence for the mother is called ‘post - abortion trauma’. The following is a list of emotional and psychological side effects that may be experienced following an abortion. The intensity or duration of these effects will vary from person to person. Here is a list of potential side effects that may be of concern to you:
· Regret ; it means that woman who carry out an abortion will get a feeling of sadness because of something that lost and never comeback again.
· Grief (including constant crying); the woman will cry and feel sorrow if she remember her abortion.
· Problems with self – image; she will have problem with her confidence.
· Anger against partner, parents, doctors and those who suggested the abortion, leading to a collapse in relationships.
· Self – pity; she feels that she is a poor woman.
· Moodiness; she will get problem to control her mood.
· Withdrawing from others; she will assume that withdrawing from other can decrease her guilt.
· Using drugs; to take mind of her problem and to omit her depression, she will use drugs and let her disappear.
· Sleeplessness and nightmares; her feeling will be very hurt and also feels guilty because of the abortion. That makes she can not sleep and always nightmare.
· Going off sex or using it to overcome the pain.
· Anger; she feels that she is a bad woman, and that feeling make her always angry.
· Guilty feelings; she will feel guilt because she had killed someone's life although that is an embryo.
· Shame; she will shame to the society because she had done something without worrying abortion her pregnancy.
· Loneliness or isolation; she feels that her action to abortion the pregnancy is wrong and there is no other that want to be her friend or partner.
· Impaired self confidence;
· Insomnia or nightmares; she always thinking of the abortion and it makes she can not fast sleep.
· Relationship issues;
· Suicidal thoughts and feelings;
· Eating disorders ( over eating or under eating); besides of the physical effects that makes her stomach sick, she also feels that she is guilt so that she can not eat as usual.
· Depression; because of her action to abortion her pregnancy, she feels very sad, anxious, and guilt. As the result she can not sleep.
· Anxiety; she feels not safe and always remember that she is a killer. This because of the guilty.
It is possible for anyone to experience an emotional or psychological side effect following an abortion. Women commonly report that the abortion procedure affected them more than they thought it would. However, there are individuals who are more susceptible to experience some type of emotional or psychological struggle. Below is a list of circumstances that may increase a woman’s chances of having an emotional or psychological side effect:
· Individuals with previous emotional or psychological issues
· Individuals who have been coerced, forced or persuaded to get an abortion
· Individuals with religious beliefs that conflict with abortion
· Individuals with moral or ethical positions that conflict with abortion
· Individuals who obtain an abortion in later stages of their pregnancy
· Individuals without support from significant others or their partner
· Obtaining an abortion for genetic or fetal abnormalities
These are another psychological effects of abortion :
It is normal to mourn after the loss of a pregnancy, regardless of the reason for the loss. In the case of an abortion this may be particularly difficult because the abortion may have been freely chosen to resolve other problems. Most women feel some relief immediately after the abortion procedure, though there is often sadness as well.
Natural hormonal changes related to pregnancy can cause a woman to feel more emotional than usual. Post-abortive women may experience a variety of feelings, including sadness, anger, regret, guilt, or even numbness.
Women who have experienced abortion often report symptoms typical of depressive and anxiety disorders, such as sleeplessness, tearfulness, anxiety, hopelessness, irritability, and an inability to concentrate. These problems can be confounded by relationship difficulties that are often both a cause and effect of the abortion decision. When a pregnancy loss occurs in secret, this can prevent others from offering the support and guidance needed to navigate this stressful time.
Although many women experience these problems for only a short period, many others have emotional difficulties for a long period after the abortion. These may manifest as clinical depression, an anxiety disorder, substance abuse, an eating disorder, or sexual difficulties. Women who already have problems such as these before an abortion may have a worsening of symptoms as a result of the abortion. Such difficulties can last for months or even years.
In addition to these reactions, other symptoms seem to be unique to post-abortive women. These include avoidance of babies, fear of future pregnancies, or a quick attempt to become pregnant again to create an "atonement child" to replace the one lost by abortion. Women may also have flashbacks and nightmares about the abortion. This constellation of symptoms is sometimes called "post-abortion syndrome" (PAS). PAS can be successfully treated via individual or group counseling. Most pregnancy resource centers offer such counseling or can provide a referral.
Women who have had abortions clearly need to seek help to restore balance in their lives and to help release them from the guilt they might feel from their actions.
